I warn you that this is a lot of rambling. Just getting my thoughts out and it may not even make sense so I apologize ahead of time.
We have a big change in our plans. Our rental house is available to move in on the 15th of December. After the 15th Chris's work won't continue to pay for him to stay in a hotel until Christmas Eve. I totally understand that, it wouldn't make sense for the company to spend money like that if we have a place to live. So that means Chris would move into our house and have absolutely nothing except for his suitcase. It doesn't make sense for him to go to the store to buy pots and pans, towels, a shower curtain, and an air mattress, sheets, pillows, etc. when we have it all here at home. The original plan was he would come back here on Christmas Eve and we would move within a couple days after Christmas day....all while he still stayed in a hotel but we don't want to afford to have to pay for him to stay in a hotel. His boss let him know they would prefer us to move next week instead of during the week in between Christmas and New Years. That's what we're gonna do...we're moving next weekend.
I'm excited to not have to wait another 2 weeks to see Chris. This past week was good but it's just not the same when you are a state apart. We tell each other about our days but we can't just sit and enjoy each others company each night like we normally do.
I really worry about our family and friends. I worry so much about trying to not hurt everyone's feelings. I understand about being sad to move, my whole life is about to change a state away....but I don't want to feel guilty about being excited about our move. It's not anybody specifically making me feel this way except for myself. I have looked into so many things for us to do to keep busy with Claire before baby arrives. I'm really excited about all of the things we can do and that there is so much more available to us now that we will be living in a bigger city! I do really want to be able to plan trips to come back to Meridian and Boise but this year will be tough. I can't travel a whole lot during the last part of my pregnancy. After Claire is two in March then we will have to start paying for a seat for her on the airplane (I think) and trying to travel with two kids will be a whole new experience. I'm hoping that we will get some visitors after baby is born. I really want my Mom and mother in law to be able to come to see baby and to visit with Claire. I know we are all going to miss Claire being able to go over to the grandparents' house every so often.
I'm going to miss all of my friends. I'm really going to miss my closest friend, Sarah!! We've known each other since Sophomore year of high school!! We've done so much together and been through so much over the past almost 10 years!! I just hope that we can have her come and visit over the summer. I'm gonna start saving up a little bit now for a plane ticket for her because she's coming whether she wants to or not. Haha We don't get together as often as we used to but that's just life after having a baby but I will miss not having the option of us just getting together when we both have a free day. It all has to be planned out ahead of time now!
It's all a big adjustment to get used to again. Chris is flying home on the 15th and we will be leaving on the 17th. We don't think we will be back for Christmas. Chris would have to work on the 23rd...we would have to try to drive back that night, stay for the 24th and part of Christmas morning and then drive back home. It's just so much driving in such a little time with a toddler. She will hate being in her carseat if she's stuck in it for that long within a three day time frame. If we won the lottery we would fly back but we haven't won it yet....still hoping!
Next week is going to be so busy. Tuesday we find out baby's gender. We've decided to have the doctor write it down, put it in an envelope and we will open it on the Thursday when Chris gets back here! I think that will be more exciting for us to find out together then to have him find out over speaker phone. Wednesday is my birthday. All I look forward to now is just having cake and spending time with family and friends! Thursday night Chris comes home. Friday we pack up all day and Saturday we move. We will unpack Saturday and Sunday....or maybe just Saturday if we're lucky enough to get it all done once we get there. Chris will go back to work on Monday I believe, which leaves me and Claire to get the house organized. So much in such a short amount of time!
That's pretty much what's going on in my head this morning. I've been up since 6:35 with Claire bear. Too much on my mind and it's nice to blog again to get it out!!