I've had our move on my mind a lot lately. It's completely consumed me and I've been dealing with self induced anxiety over it. I know I felt this way too before we moved from Idaho to Oregon but this is a much bigger move. A whole house, 3 cars, 2 kids, 1 dog.
I feel like I've thought about it or talked about it non-stop so I'm hoping if I just write everything out on my blog I can let go of my anxiety and just focus on life that is still happening around me.
We know our relocation budget and we will get the money for our move in January. We can move at anytime once we get it. Any travel that Chris has to make to Atlanta for work in the mean time will have to come out of our relocation budget. That means we need to really plan on moving sooner then later so our budget doesn't dwindle down so much that we can't afford to move. We are working on a plan and will do what is best for our family and what makes sense financially.
I have a lot of anxiety about how I'm feeling about the trip. I'm really, really excited. Of course part of me is sad to move away from my brother and my soon to be sister in law. It will be tough to not be a 7 hour drive away from my Mom. I can't just drive there for a week long trip. A lot more time, planning and money will go into visits. I'm sad to move away from close friends and neighbors. I'm sad that I will miss one of my best friends birth of her new baby boy. I still can't help but to feel excited for this new adventure. I'm really looking forward to our road trip across the United States. I've been across the country as a child but don't remember much. I'm happy I get to experience it as an adult as well. I stress about hurting everyone's feelings because all I can focus on is this move. I stress that friends will feel I'm not sad to leave. It comes in waves. The sadness usually hits at night right before I'm about to fall asleep and I have the most down time to think about what great people we won't be near anymore. I can't focus on the sad though or it will drain me.
It took a while for Oregon to feel like home but it is home. It's where our sweet Kellyn was born, where our Claire has celebrated most of her birthdays, and where we welcomed Jake into our family. Oregon is so beautiful and I regret that we didn't explore more of it and I am so thankful for all of the adventures we have had here.
So far our goal is to move no later then March. This can and probably will change one way or the other. It's all kind of unpredictable right now. Chris flies to Atlanta for a week in January. We are hoping he can check out some houses one of the days he is there. If not, I am hoping we can make a quick trip together to try to find a place in February so we can hopefully find a home, secure a move in date and we can get everything scheduled for movers.
So far from what I've researched, the Atlanta area is beautiful. There are a lot of things to do, places to see, experiences waiting to be experienced. I'm so proud of my husband and all of his accomplishments. I'm so thankful I'm the one who gets to be his partner during his journey through his career and life. Maybe what I feel doesn't compare to how he feels, I'm not really sure. He doesn't say too much about his feelings. He's extremely focused on going above and beyond and providing for our family. He was worked hard for all of this and he amazes me every day!
